The Lariam Tab

Today’s leg of The Lariam Tab took us deep into the Land of the Prince Bishops, a route steeped in history and heavy with meaning. From the first steps out of Crook, through Bishop Auckland and onwards towards Darlington, every mile carried both memory and purpose.

The day began with a reminder that “no plan survives first contact with the enemy.” An unexpected bridge closure forced us into a diversion. But as often happens, the unexpected brought its own rewards, the alternate path added not just miles, but unexpected beauty and value to the walk.

Crossing the viaduct, we encountered a well-known local hotspot for tragic losses. The sight of large signs calling for help was sobering. It is heartbreaking that it should ever come to this in the first place, and serves as yet another reminder of why this journey matters.

Today we especially remembered Chris Small.

We first connected with Chris on 16 December 2015, when he reached out on social media asking for help after suffering severe adverse effects from Lariam. He endured relentless anxiety and mood swings, and despite best efforts to support him, the lack of clinical education, resources, and acknowledgement of this type of physical injury meant the system failed him.

Chris’s death was preventable. His loss left a trail of destruction behind, but also a legacy carried forward by his inspirational family. To his wife Mandy and son Jamie, who he loved so deeply we walked in Chris’s memory today, with every step carrying his spirit onward.

The route itself was a reminder of the region’s rich past. We passed glimpses of Durham Cathedral and St Cuthbert, and the imposing Bishop Auckland Palace, the very heart of the Prince Bishops’ land. From Shildon to Heighington, Cross Lanes, Walworth Gate, and Archdeacon Newton, the journey was not just through roads and fields, but through layers of history.

After a long and emotional day, there was a personal moment of light. Hidden away until the right moment, my twin brother made a surprise appearance to join us at the end of the walk. His well-concealed visit was the perfect conclusion to a tough but meaningful stage.

Moving Forward

Day 7 reminded us of the fragility of life, the pain of preventable loss, and the resilience of memory. As the miles pass, so too grows the call for truth, accountability, and recognition of those we’ve lost, including those harmed by Lariam.

Tomorrow brings more miles, but also more voices, more memories, and more strength.

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